Pregnancy

I have yet to be able to wrap my mind around why some women are able to get pregnant so easily and others are not. (And before you start sending me comment with technically information, I know the medical side of it. I am talking about the want vs. not wanting and the trying vs. not trying aspect of getting pregnant.) I was just told by a co-worker that she is pregnant. Let me give you a little background on her. She is barely 19 years old. She is a freshman in college with a part time job. She lives with her boyfriend and to my knowledge has no plans on being married any time soon. They were not trying to get pregnant and obviously they were doing very little to prevent it. She told me that she is too young to have a baby but she is going through with it anyway. She went to the local "pregnancy center" and got information and started on prenatal care. She is applying for Medicaid and will be having this baby on the US taxpayer's dime. I just can't figure out why someone who is in such an unprepared situation can get pregnant when someone like me can not. I would not charge the US taxpayer a dime to have my child. I have saved to prepare to the event and have very good insurance to cover the rest. I have been a couple with my husband for 10 years (three of which we have been married). We have stable jobs, a house, a great marriage and a lot more to give a child. But yet month after month we are continually denied that blessing. I know the answers you are going to give me – God will provide in time; Be patient it will happen; and so on. I am just sick and tired of being patient and watching everyone else move on with their lives!!! I want it too! Don’t get me wrong, I don't blame God for us not having a child yet, I just don't understand his reasoning and I wish there was a neon sign pointing to the answer. But I continue to pray and try to be patient. It was just hard to watch and listen to people like my co-worker. I try to be Christian about it, but it is getting damn hard. I just feel like going in a corner and crying but I have to continue on with life. I just can't stop and have a pity party. Thanks for listening. I feel better (I guess).